So, with the recent changes in my life.....actully.....I haven't had any changes yet....but things are about to get really interesting.
Okay, very funny....as I am typing this DH and I are sitting in the family room watching TV.....he keeps getting up and going into the kitchen and grabbing a brownie bite.....on his way back into the family room he quietly walks past me, drops a brownie on the table beside me and keeps walking...he has done it twice...they are starting to stack up.
Okay, back to my news. Those of you who have followed me over from Diary-x, I was skinnygirldreams......meaning I was always dreaming of being a skinnier version of myself. Ayways, I had two very common themes during those two years, I wanted to be a mom, DH and I suffered with infertility....nothing we did...worked. And, I was wanted to lose weight and be healthy....that was different. I did succeed in losing weight.....but it was like when I did lose weight it took everything out of me. I lost 60 pounds, and was loving life.....I remember sitting in my Dr.s office crying because I did not want to get put on a prescription medication that causes weight gain, that combined with the stress of DH being deployed to Iraq was more than I could fight, I ended up puting the 60 pounds back on...and then some. And while I did that...I seemed to lose any inspiration and confidence I had to get thin.
Why am I telling you all of this you ask?
Well, DH and I are in the middle of adopting a little girl from Guatemala, we don't know who she is because we're still in the process of getting our paperwork together.....but we are doing it....it's very exciting!!! I'm going to be a mama!! Mama Roo...has a very nice ring to it. ;o) It's very scary.......but very exciting at the same time....I do worry if I have what it takes to be a great mom.....I hope I do....I know I was a great nanny....and it's pretty much the same. I was a very good Nanny to Lindsay....and I loved her very much and would have done anything for her......so hopefully it was good practice for being a mom.
The other big news, I am having gastric bypass surgery. My doctor brought up the subject a couple of months ago and I met with a surgeon and pretty much got scared and decided I didn't want it that bad. Well, then we started this adoption process and I thought about being a roll model for our little girl and what her life would be like growing up with a morbidly obese mom, I know many do a wonderful job with this hadicap, but it's not the mom I want to be. So, I'm doing it. I have a surgery date of June 15th and hopefully by the time she comes home, I will be a much healthier me with lots of energy for her.
So that's it.......my two big announcements........more to come......:o)
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