First things first....yes....that is a picture of me up there....big nose and all. ;o)
Okay, now on to what is bugging me....
So I work for a major IT corporation and most of the time it is fun....but lately it hasn't been so much fun. See, I am part of a team supporting a new account...and it's one of their largest contracts so people (management) are hyper stressed about every little aspect and if one person, regardless of who they are complaines...things get changed. Problem is, the wrong things get changed...and the things that are broken and should be changed never do.
Well, I got a call from my boss tonight. He said that things were changing on the account and they want to switch my shift around.
Okay, let me back up for a sec....
One of the things I really LOVE about my jobs is the hours. I work 12 hour shifts and end up getting half of the week to play. It's great. I have been offered other positions and have turned them down because I wasn't working 12'ves. It allows me to have lots of freedom and do many other things with my life....which I like.
K, back to my manager.....
He called me tonight and said that upper management wants me to start working 8's, m-f 8-5. They want me there as much as possible to make sure things aren't missed and that people are doing what they're supposed to.
Sounds kinda like a lead postion without the pay.....right?
Anyways, really it's a compliment and I should be honored that my name came up when they were deciding on this.....but...
Somehow....I feel like it's a slap in the face. I don't want it.....I want my shift to stay the way it is now, Sun, Mon, Tue and every other Wed 6Am to 6Pm. I even asked my boss if it could and he said that there was no wiggle room...none. This is how it is.....for now. He apoligized and said some bull about how the contract needed it this way for now.
So, the insecure part of me is thinking that this is all because I put in my three week time off request for my surgery this week....and that this is payback somehow. I know that is illegal....but it feels like I'm being punished. My manager did tell me that others were getting their shifts changed around too.
...and honestly, if I take a step out of my PMS'ing over emotional body right now (yes, I know....great timing on their part is it not?) No matter what shift they moved me to...or even if they didn't move me at all, I would think that they were punishing me for something....that is just how I am, paranoid. ;o) I hate taking time off......and I guess I feel really, really guilty that I am taking any off at all.....
So that's it.....changes at work....now I'm looking forward to getting back and finding out who else got their shifts changed and to where.
My manager is going to call me tomorrow and let me know when this is all going to start....I hope it's not too soon...I have Dr.'s appointments to go to....shoot..have I mentioned how much I hate this?
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Wow.....changes in our house!
So, with the recent changes in my life.....actully.....I haven't had any changes yet....but things are about to get really interesting.
Okay, very funny....as I am typing this DH and I are sitting in the family room watching TV.....he keeps getting up and going into the kitchen and grabbing a brownie bite.....on his way back into the family room he quietly walks past me, drops a brownie on the table beside me and keeps walking...he has done it twice...they are starting to stack up.
Okay, back to my news. Those of you who have followed me over from Diary-x, I was skinnygirldreams......meaning I was always dreaming of being a skinnier version of myself. Ayways, I had two very common themes during those two years, I wanted to be a mom, DH and I suffered with infertility....nothing we did...worked. And, I was wanted to lose weight and be healthy....that was different. I did succeed in losing weight.....but it was like when I did lose weight it took everything out of me. I lost 60 pounds, and was loving life.....I remember sitting in my Dr.s office crying because I did not want to get put on a prescription medication that causes weight gain, that combined with the stress of DH being deployed to Iraq was more than I could fight, I ended up puting the 60 pounds back on...and then some. And while I did that...I seemed to lose any inspiration and confidence I had to get thin.
Why am I telling you all of this you ask?
Well, DH and I are in the middle of adopting a little girl from Guatemala, we don't know who she is because we're still in the process of getting our paperwork together.....but we are doing it....it's very exciting!!! I'm going to be a mama!! Mama Roo...has a very nice ring to it. ;o) It's very scary.......but very exciting at the same time....I do worry if I have what it takes to be a great mom.....I hope I do....I know I was a great nanny....and it's pretty much the same. I was a very good Nanny to Lindsay....and I loved her very much and would have done anything for her......so hopefully it was good practice for being a mom.
The other big news, I am having gastric bypass surgery. My doctor brought up the subject a couple of months ago and I met with a surgeon and pretty much got scared and decided I didn't want it that bad. Well, then we started this adoption process and I thought about being a roll model for our little girl and what her life would be like growing up with a morbidly obese mom, I know many do a wonderful job with this hadicap, but it's not the mom I want to be. So, I'm doing it. I have a surgery date of June 15th and hopefully by the time she comes home, I will be a much healthier me with lots of energy for her.
So that's it.......my two big announcements........more to come......:o)
Okay, very funny....as I am typing this DH and I are sitting in the family room watching TV.....he keeps getting up and going into the kitchen and grabbing a brownie bite.....on his way back into the family room he quietly walks past me, drops a brownie on the table beside me and keeps walking...he has done it twice...they are starting to stack up.
Okay, back to my news. Those of you who have followed me over from Diary-x, I was skinnygirldreams......meaning I was always dreaming of being a skinnier version of myself. Ayways, I had two very common themes during those two years, I wanted to be a mom, DH and I suffered with infertility....nothing we did...worked. And, I was wanted to lose weight and be healthy....that was different. I did succeed in losing weight.....but it was like when I did lose weight it took everything out of me. I lost 60 pounds, and was loving life.....I remember sitting in my Dr.s office crying because I did not want to get put on a prescription medication that causes weight gain, that combined with the stress of DH being deployed to Iraq was more than I could fight, I ended up puting the 60 pounds back on...and then some. And while I did that...I seemed to lose any inspiration and confidence I had to get thin.
Why am I telling you all of this you ask?
Well, DH and I are in the middle of adopting a little girl from Guatemala, we don't know who she is because we're still in the process of getting our paperwork together.....but we are doing it....it's very exciting!!! I'm going to be a mama!! Mama Roo...has a very nice ring to it. ;o) It's very scary.......but very exciting at the same time....I do worry if I have what it takes to be a great mom.....I hope I do....I know I was a great nanny....and it's pretty much the same. I was a very good Nanny to Lindsay....and I loved her very much and would have done anything for her......so hopefully it was good practice for being a mom.
The other big news, I am having gastric bypass surgery. My doctor brought up the subject a couple of months ago and I met with a surgeon and pretty much got scared and decided I didn't want it that bad. Well, then we started this adoption process and I thought about being a roll model for our little girl and what her life would be like growing up with a morbidly obese mom, I know many do a wonderful job with this hadicap, but it's not the mom I want to be. So, I'm doing it. I have a surgery date of June 15th and hopefully by the time she comes home, I will be a much healthier me with lots of energy for her.
So that's it.......my two big announcements........more to come......:o)
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